This morning I did my longest pre work bike session and it was also the first "force" workout this training season.
As I was drinking my grapefruit juice and swallowing my daily multitude of vitamins & supplements I psyched myself up, so I would be ready for it mentally. I admit I had a few doubts - unsure how well I would do physically.
I dashed to the garage in nothing but my bike shorts, tank & a light fleece. Brrr colder morning than it has been. But a great wake up call.
I warmed up well, pushed myself hard when I was supposed to, went light on the recovery between sets and did the cool down at a moderate intensity.
There was a definite spring in my step on my way back to the house and caught myself humming in the shower - quite pleased with myself. Smoothie with protein powder, egg whites on a rice cake and coffee all tasted better than ever!
****all the above was drafted 12 hours before everything below ****
I was in such a great headspace and then everything went
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What was not on my training plan today was a life lesson in mental and emotional toughness.
Nothing distresses me more than disrespectful selfish-centred decisions made with no thought of the negative impact they have on the lives of others. I was on the receiving end of a decision that will no doubt cost me - time, money and energy I hadn't planned on. I am powerless to alter this but will find a way to cope.
It has taken 8 hours it has taken for me to believe that. I had to experience a fairly intense meltdown to convince myself of that.
Fortunately, the wisdom of my years & knowing myself better than anyone, guided me home, to the peace sanctuary of my room where I could have a good cry (without an audience), have a glass of wine, then herbal tea... regroup, regain composure, and lick my wounds with no 'human' contact and think long thoughts uninterupted.
I wasn't going to post this but reminded myself that it is a bump along the path of the journey.
Early night.
Tomorrow is another day.
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